I doesnt matter how much fixing I do you always have some kind of problem with me so fuck it.
I tried to make your day as special as possible and not fight for one day and you still figure out how make me feel like shit. I honestly just dont know what to do anymore. I’m tired of fighting, tired of being sad, tired of feeling like I have to compete and tired of putting more effort into this than you are. I’m not gonna keep trying so now its up to you. If we fall apart I know that I did my best to make this work and that I am not the reason we didnt move forward. I know you care and I know you like me so why is it so hard to show it?
The fact that I’ve given you the power to affect my night this much is what bothers me the most.